Merry Christmas

December 25, 2010 1 comment

Merry Christmas everyone!

This is the first Christmas in about 10 years that I have not had my dad with us. And also the first Christmas on my own. It was a very emotional morning for my kids and I with the holiday situation so changed. Two out of the four of us ended up in tears, cause we were all in fragile emotional states and ended up arguing with each other. After the tears though we managed to make up and have been very much enjoying the day with each other. I love my kids more than anything and having them all here together is wonderful.

I also received a surprise phone call from an old friend from 20 years ago. He and I worked together and thought about dating until I found out I was pregnant with my oldest daughter. That shot the dating right out of the water and I ended up marrying her father ( the one I am now separated from ). It was a very pleasant surprise to get that phone call. The last time I talked to him was just before I got married 18 years ago. We may get together to do something for New Years.

I have been keeping up with my gym workouts though I have gained 10 lbs back. I know it is because of all the stress I have been under as well as the emotional junk food eating I have been doing. I have requested that my trainer write me up a eating plan to hopefully get me back on track with my healthy eating. I have decided that I do want to do a figure competition, and that is going to require some real dedication to eating and workouts on my part.

Well, nothing much to say for today. I hope everyone is having a wonderful Christmas with their loved ones and that Santa was good to you!

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Funny how life works

December 5, 2010 3 comments

It’s funny how that now I am away from my husband, on my own, my friends are finding their way back into my life. For many years, my friends slowly gravitated away from me and my life. Now that I am on my own, they seem to be coming back. And the funny thing is, they had no idea I had left my husband. One of my friends I haven’t talked to in 20 years and we have stumbled upon each other again the past couple of days. My best friend who moved away 8 years ago and we lost contact, ran across my daughter a couple of weeks ago and we are now back in contact. Another one has recently moved to the city here and contacted us yesterday to get together. She also had no idea about my separation.  It is good though cause I have outlets for my frustration and fear now. Good friends are the BEST! To me it goes to show that there is someone up there watching out for us and helping us when we need it the most.

My friend once said to me a statement she had heard somewhere: ‘You never know how strong you really are until you need to be”  That is so true for my life right now. For years I was afraid to leave, didn’t think I was strong enough to do it. But I proved myself wrong and I have seen how strong I really can be. And it is the best decision I have ever made in my life!

So nothing else to say for now. I am cooking dinner for my daughter and I and then will be heading of to the gym for a friends workout with my trainer (that means I don’t need to pay for it cause we are working out together). Oh, and by the way, I now live only about a mile from my gym so my daughter and I can rollerblade or bike there in the spring and summer. I love it and love the gas I am saving. LOL.

 

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A new life

December 1, 2010 3 comments

Hello all my dear friends out there who have wondered where I have been.

Things have not been great for me. Actually my world kind of fell apart. In amongst my constant internal personal struggle  with the loss of my dad, my husband kicked my teenage daughter out of the family home and gave me the choice between her or him. If she stayed, he would leave. I had two other children to think about as well as how we would manage and survive without their father, without the income.

After-wards, my husband just wasn’t himself, it was like I was living with a stranger. I was getting absolutely no support from his end over the death of my father or any help in any way with trying to deal with his estate. Things really haven’t been good between my husband and I for many years now. And I just could not forgive him over making me choose between him and my daughter, the same daughter who had just got out of an abusive relationship and the head trauma that cost her her short term memory……….

In the end, last month my youngest daughter and I left my husband. We moved from the small town we lived in into the city. And I have to admit that I am terrified……..that I wont make it on my own, that I wont be able to support myself and my daughter. I have my part time job but I will need to find another, or a full time one that will be sure to cover all our costs. And the crazy thing about all of this is that all three of my children are in agreement that this was the best decision for me to have made. They have seen how I have been treated these years by my husband and feel that I need and deserve to be happy.

For now, I am still attending the gym as my health and fitness have become a major part of my life and something I absolutely need to continue with right now. I have a lot of anger, and hate and grief built up inside me and the gym is my escape, my source of stress relief. I still also have my fantastic personal trainer, who thinks I should enter next years figure competition. And, over the course of our training sessions since last April, my trainer and I have become very good friends and he is a major source of support and shoulder to cry on. I wont be able to afford him after a couple more weeks though if I don’t manage to find another job. And believe me, I have looked and looked and applied and applied, and nothing. I would absolutely miss our training sessions together which is our time together to talk and don’t believe we would be able to get together as friends after-wards as his wife is extremely jealous of me.

So my friends, that is where I have been, and what has been going on with me. I am planning to get back to here, where I have you friends and I can vent and get support. I hope you guys are still all hanging around. It’ll take me a heck of a long time to catch up with all of you but I’m getting started right away. Hope to hear from you guys.

 

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Leg workout and a fresh garden salad…

July 2, 2010 5 comments

Finally, finally I was about to enjoy some of the produce out of my garden. It has been a slow going start for my garden this year as the weather could not meet and settle with a nice growing temperature for the little seeds to take hold. Either it was way to chilly or smoking hot, both of which have negative affects on little seeds and seedlings trying to get their start. But yesterday I was able to collect these to have in a fresh salad:

Radishes

Romaine Lettuce

spinach

I also added some yellow and red peppers and some tomatoes. Unfortunately, I have never had a long enough growind season to be able to grow peppers and tomatoes are always a touchy thing. My tomato plants so far look as if they have been put through the ringer because of the weather instability so I doubt I will have any fresh garden ones this year. I have been blessed with children that absolutely LOVE spinach and I can’t seem to grow enough of it to keep them satisfied. LOL

So, since I missed another day of gym having taken an unexpected day off, today will be my leg workout day. While browsing leg/glute workout videos, I ran across one called the frog squat using dumbbells. I have been doing this move but with kettle bells and never had an idea what the move was called. Frog squats suit it perfectly! Here is a video on how to do frog squats. They are super effective on glutes, hamstrings and inner thighs. I love them! Jodi over at Truth2beingfit.com posted a post yesterday on some super effective leg/butt moves to help out us ladies/men who are working on our derriere areas! I have to admit that I am afraid to try out the smith machine because ( and this will seem silly to some of you) it is in the area of the gym where all the big workout equipment is and where all the BIG, BULKY men are. Now I am not in general afraid of the big, bulky men (some of them are ultra hot!) but, little me trying to use an unfamiliar piece of equipment in this environment is FREAKY! Funny how all the big, huge men seem to congregate to the same area of the gym eh?

Anyways, I am off to pick some more fresh spinach and find a spinach dip recipe to use it in. Any of you have a good spinach dip recipe you would like to share? I love spinach dip and just don’t get enough of it in my diet! LOL

And good news about my kids: my son is doing fine after his roll over. The lady in the other car is also doing fine. You would never know my son just had such a serious accident as he is up and about and everything healed. Just some stitches near his one eye visible. And my daughter is starting to regain her memory. Very exciting to hear her talk about things she had forgotten and she didn’t realize she was now remembering. Good, good days! Haven’t heard anything about my uncle yet but, I am sure everything is going good or my grandmother would have phoned me again.

Sticking it out…

June 30, 2010 6 comments

In spite of all the crap that 2010 is throwing at my family this year and presently this week, I am sticking it out at the gym. I am making sure that I go each day regardless of the fact that my trainer is on holidays and I am under extreme stress. My working out at the gym is my way of burning off the stress and I feel SO much better afterwards. That is one of the main things I have learned over the past few months, that my intense workouts, running and weight lifting, relieves my stress, tension and frustration and I am a much happier person, able to deal with things. Today however I skipped the gym in order to hit the nearest Lululemon store to catch some of the crop pants on sale before they all sold out!


I bought all three (though the third one was not on sale) and a new power Y tank. And the great surprise was that I could go down another size in the pants! Yipey. Lululemon could very, very easily become an addiction for me. I absolutely LOVE their clothing but it is NOT in my budget so it is a rare treat when I can go shop there. You lulu lovers out there know what I mean! :) I guess I will have to put my other lulu tank tops on Kijiji to sell as they are getting to big for me now.

So tomorrow will be my leg day at the gym since I missed out on today. One of the exercises I do is the squat on a bosu ball while holding some weights or a medicine ball. Working my legs is my favorite workout of the week. Tough but, if I want the rear, I need to do the work! LOL.

What’s with 2010?

June 28, 2010 6 comments

I just don’t understand what the hell is with 2010 for me and my family. One trauma or disaster after another. This has been my weekend:

My grandmother called to tell me that my uncle ( my mom’s brother–lost my mom a year ago) was the victim of a hit and run and while in the hospital, had a heart attack. He is, as far as I know, recovery ok. I haven’t been able to get a hold of my grandmother as I don’t have her cell #.

My son was in a horrific car accident where his car was t-boned and rolled and thrown into a farm field. Thank god he had his seat belt on or he would have been dead! He got up and walked away where as the woman in the other car is seriously hurt as she had no seat belt on. She was the one who hit my son.

My oldest daughter fell down a flight of stairs and split her head open on the concrete, injured her hip and lower back and has lost her short term memory. The doc in not sure right now about whether or not she will regain it. And she was to start her brand new job today. I talked to her boss and she will hold my daughters job for her until she is fit to work. Thank you!

At this point I want nothing more than to put my youngest daughter in a bubble and not let her leave the house or my sight. But that is not practical! My youngest is staying with my oldest for now to help take care of her while her boyfriend works. And I go and help when I can.

Wish my family luck my friends as we sure seem to need it this year of 2010. I hate to waste my life but, right now I wish 2010 was over. 2011 can only be better for us.

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A sample of abs….

June 17, 2010 5 comments

Yesterday was an unexpected day off from working out at the gym since my trainer had some other things to deal with. So my leg workout is rescheduled for Friday instead. We have decided that for the next few weeks, my sessions with him will be one day of chest/shoulders/triceps or biceps, and one day of legs. I seem to have my back workouts down pat for now and can manage them on my own for awhile while my trainer helps me to concentrate on my ass and legs!! He loves to switch things up on a weekly basis which keeps my body shocked and my core working harder.

Always in my sessions we superset with ab work to keep me 1) doing my ab work, 2) strengthing my core, and 3) keep my heart rate up for maximum calorie burn.

And since I like to show you what exercises my trainer makes me do and we all love videos, I have here for you two videos of some of the ab work he has me doing.

This one really works the lower abs and I have to admit that I do whine to my trainer every time he makes me do them. He has me pull my bum up higher off the bench for maximum work.

This russian twist here took me a while to get the hang of as I kept falling off the ball. I takes some real concentration and stability to stay on the ball and keep your feet from lifting off the floor. If your feet move, you aren’t getting the full benefit to your obliques.

So here you go. These are just two of the many ab exercises I have to do. Some days I hate abs and some days I love them but, I am looking forward to the day that I can show off a mini six pack!! Tonight is my solo back day as well as cardio. I am going to try to get a few more mins of cardio in to try to boost my fat loss. I can’t really say weight loss any more as my weight depends on my workouts, my water, my salt, ect. But it’s my FAT that needs to go! :)

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