Archive for August, 2009

can I get back on track?

August 30, 2009 1 comment

Okay, so my dad has gone home. But, instead of getting back on track with eating and exercise right away, like always I go into a depression. What is it about my dad going home that always brings on a depression streak? He only lives 4 hours away and we see him at least one weekend a month, sometimes more. But, whenever he leaves, I get depressed and it last for 2 or 3 days. And when depressed, I DO NOT workout or eat healthy. Its junk and binges.

I think it has to do with the fact that my mom, who also only lived 4 hours away, passed away last Christmas and I hadn’t seen her in 7 years. She really was not a nice person and my kids and DH did not WANT to visit her but, we should have anyways. She was only 60 when she passed very unexpectedly from a stroke. What bothers me a lot is that she was going to come visit us for Christmas for the first time in 7 years but she never made it. Finding out that my grandfather (the most important person in my life )  was also only 60 when he passed from a stroke, and my grandmother was 61 when she too passed from a stroke, I think has put extreme fear in my heart and mind for my dad. He is 62 and in good health but, the loss of my family at such young ages, and so unexpectedly has me scared! I thought turning 40 this month wouldn’t bother me but, it has. Very much. Do I only have another 20 years to live?

I know for some people that when their time comes, their time comes. Regardless of their health status at the time. But, I still believe that being healthy and in shape will help to increase a persons life span. So that is my goal. If my time is meant to be 60, then with healthy eating and exercise, can I make it t0 70 or more?

So I need to find a way to break through this depression, and get off my butt. Get back on track! Eat healthy again and get back to my workouts. I have learned that I only need a week of no exercise to make me a couch potato again. So I need to fight the glue on my ass and get back to work. And find a way to keep at it! Can I do it?

How do you guys fight off spells of depression? Do your fears cripple aspects of your lives?

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nice to have a moment…

August 27, 2009 Leave a comment

Wow, is it ever nice to get a moment to catch up on blogs and get here to update. My dad has been visiting for a little over a week and when he’s here, I just can’t get in the time to exercise. Everyday, and I mean EVERY day, we have gone to the city and was there the whole day. I think I learned more about the city in a week than I did when I actually lived there! Today my dad is off with the hubby for a couple of hours so I am going to take advantage of my spare time and get a C25K session in. And boy! do I ever miss trail biking! Hopefully I will get a chance to go this weekend. School starts for the kids on monday and I am back to work. Plus, one of the areas we bike in allows natives ( I that the correct term? I don’t want to upset anyone.) to hunt from mid sept. to mid nov? dec? so we don’t want to be in that area as of sept.

Honestly, having a whole month off, I thought I would be able to lose a few lbs with all the time I would have for exercise and healthy eating. Well, the week of depression I had stalled that idea, and the 3 birthdays in a row plus the unexpected week and a half of my dad. Everyday in the city was at least 2 meals out which is always a problem for me and weight loss. Not every restaurant is weight conscious. So my clothes are snugger and I sure am scared off my weigh – in on Monday. It will be my first in a month. Hopefully the damage won’t be too bad.

So far today for breakfast was cherries, cottage cheese and a piece of squirelly bread toast with coffee. As soon as breakfast settles, I will be on my treadmill. I am so excited to have a chance to workout!

Categories: biking, C25K

My bike.

August 23, 2009 Leave a comment

Here is a pic of my bike that I was going to post a long time ago. I finally remembered to download it off the camera. LOL. Is it a mountain bike? Trail bike? Are they the same thing? I don’t know. I just loved my bike at the store and it feels great to ride. That’s all that matters right? LOL.

My bike!

The little rack on the back embarrasses my kids but it sure has come in handy at times and, I think it’s kinda cute.

Categories: biking

Unexplainable panic

August 22, 2009 1 comment

I don’t know what it is today but, I woke up feeling panicky and majorly stressed out and I have no idea why. My bills are paid and the kids are all set for school and everyone is healthy and fine. So I don’t get it. I am seriously sitting here  on the verge of a panic attack for no reason. All morning I have felt this way.

Could it be the not so healthy eating I have done for 2 days now. Can food really affect a person like that? Is it a combination of the food and lack of exercise? Could it be the fact that I have not been able to fit in workout sessions for the past 3 days because I have my dad visiting and we have just been so busy? What? I just don’t know but, I can’t stand feeling this way. Today, I think, is going to be a relax day so I will get in a session of NORLW and either some C25K running or a nature hike.

I am hoping it is one of these that is causing my distress and the problem will be solved after a day of scheduling time for myself and my health. I have another thought about what could be causing this panic which I will talk about later if these feelings don’t get resolved.

Another successful workout day!

August 19, 2009 Leave a comment

NROLW went great. I am starting to get the hang of it but I do need to by some more weight plates and some barbells. The Wal-Mart special weight bench I bought only has 15lbs and 10lbs for weight plates which does me no good when I need to increase by only a little. Plus, the pull down bar only has room for 2 plates to fit on so the max weight I can get on it is 30 lbs. That is not enough weight for me for that exercise.

After my NROLW session, I decided to do another day of C25K week 2. It was very tough to get through today since I have been more tired from lack of sleep and headaches. But it felt great to get through it and it is amazingly soothing on my legs. I guess my legs like to run! LOL.

Lots of blueberries bought from fruit guy today as well as grapes, strawberries, nectarines and cherries. I am sad that summer is almost over and he will be gone. I just never get the amount of fruit in the winter that I get to eat all summer long. It makes it a harder struggle to eat healthy when you have less choices daily.

Looking forward to another biking session this weekend. Hopefully the weather will be nice. I sure will miss my bike this winter.

Biking with my son!

August 17, 2009 3 comments

I think I may have mentioned this before but I will again. Every single time I bike with my son, he’s 15, something happens to his bike. His is just to tough on his poor bike and manages to either break a chain or blow a tire. He does a lot of stunts and jumps while riding. Well, this last time he managed to bend his sprocket. We were 17 kms away from the truck. Thank goodness I had bought an emergency repair kit after the last time we had gone biking and he snapped his bike chain. We remembered to bring the kit with us so my son was able to straighten out his sprocket so we could keep on going. It would have been an awfully long walk for him!! No we just have to learn to bring enough water with us! LOL.

So just as I thought, I didn’t get the time yesterday to fit in my NROLW workout so that will be priority today. I am really starting to love and crave exerise again. I like that. It makes it so much easier to get up and do my workouts then. My youngest dd who is 12, loves to do active things along side me so other than NROLW, I always have a workout partner. And lately, my oldest daughter and her boyfriend have been joining us for our biking sessions and it is all that much more funner. Plus, we end up going farther which makes for a better workout.

Categories: biking

3000 calories!

August 16, 2009 1 comment

Yesterday the kids and dd’s boyfriend and I went in to the city to bike on the nature trails along the river valley. It was an awesome great time. We biked for 39 kms and with breaks it took us about 5 1/2 hours. There were times when I forgot to re-start my heart rate monitor for about 20 mins at a time so it may have been longer and I know I burned more than 3000 calories but I don’t know how much more. The kids figure I burned off a pound! That is really quite the workout with all those hills! Great fun though. This is where we went:


And this is where we went for a healthy dinner afterwards:                           




On Friday I did NROLW workout B. I could only do 1 set of the lunges as my glutes and hamstrings were very strained still from the first workout B lunges. I have always had trouble with lunges and squats because of my knee so I always over compensate with my other leg muscles which strains them. After NROLW I decided to do a week 2 of C25K. The brisk walking bothered my leg muscles but, amazingly, the running parts did not. In fact, the running was extremely soothing to my legs and strained muscles. Go figure! It sure was nice to get a run in.

Today is my dd birthday. She is now 18. Where has the time gone. Don’t know if I will manage to get in my days NROLW workout today. We will see.

Categories: biking, C25K, nature