Archive for March, 2010

Thank you’s!

March 23, 2010 6 comments

I want to thank all of you wonderful friends of mine who have been very supportive during this very hard time for me. It has help immensely. You guys are truly wonderful. I still struggle a very great amount with the fact of losing my dad. I still have trouble wrapping my mind around the fact that he is gone and keep thinking how dad should be up for a visit any time now as it has been a while ect….

This weekend I am heading back to dad’s house with my sister to clean out the house as much as we can while she is here. She lives 16 hours away and it isn’t so easy for her to get here to help me out. I am NOT ready to empty out his house. That means he is truly gone, and I am having a very hard time accepting it. I feel as if we have been ripped off, that it was not his time and we are ripped off of having him in our lives. I never felt this way when I lost my mom last year, probably because her death was more expected because of her health. It was just when it would happen with her. But, my dad was in good health, go, go, go, and so young.

As for my father in law, he finally contacted us a couple of days ago and he is fine he says. He still hasn’t returned home though and says he will be there this weekend. I really think he had a good scare and a moment of truth. I just hope it helps him to change his ways, he may not be here much longer himself now.

Working out is going good. I am running or cross training everyday and have made resistance training a steady part of my workouts now. I am really starting to enjoy the weight training portions of my workouts and am actually looking forward to them now. Tomorrow evening, hubby and I are having a sit down with a personal trainer we had met during our working out the past couple of weeks and discussing what we want in relation to health and fitness. Then we will take it from there, deciding if we want to work with him regularly or just for tips and tricks ect… I am looking forward to it, just hope he doesn’t charge us too much! LOL. ( we never asked! eecckk!)

Do any of you work with personal trainers?


2010–the year of trauma!

March 16, 2010 9 comments

Honestly, how much more can my family take? 2010 has turned out to be the year of trauma! Yesterday, we were informed that my father in law had a stroke on Sunday night. It was mild. But, we now don’t know where he is. He left the hospital on his own sometime in the night or early morning and has not been seen since. He doesn’t answer his cell. We don’t know if he is alright or not. We think that he is freaking out over having a stroke as we just lost my dad to a stroke and my dad and my father in law were good friends. We think he is freaking out and “running” away so to speak to deal with it on his own. ( that is what my hubby is like too) But, we are scared because haven’t heard from him and don’t know if he is okay. My hubby is holding out well since there is nothing we can do right now but, we are trying to prepare in case. So today was a very raw day for me emotionally and mentally.

On to some better stuff, I am keeping up with my workouts and my resistance training. As I am lifting weights, I am cursing it the whole time but, once done, proud of having finished it. Plus, it makes me feel great. It is really nice to be able to work out with my husband, we encourage and motivate each other. The weather is so totally spring and makes for fantastic outdoor runs!!

Hope everyone is doing well and not having as bad of a start to the year as my family is. Take care of yourselves and each other and spend quality time with your families.


March 13, 2010 6 comments

So after a couple of comments on yesterday’s post about adding no more than 10% of my previous weeks miles to my new weekly miles, I calculated out what I have been running each week to be 10.2 miles. So 1 new mile this week will be 10% which will be perfect. I gave a 4 mile trial run on Friday and it was perfect. I did how ever have to make and emergency stop at the porta potty in the kids play ground about half way through. (note to self: don’t eat so much fiber on run days!! LOL) Thank God for the porta potty! LOL 🙂

I am still confused however about whether I should be running the 4 miles each run now or only for a long run once      per  week. I will need to check out some of the 1/2 marathon training plans online and see how it is done. Confusing! I am not worried about speed right now, just being able to do the miles. I am not out there to win it, just to make myself proud of doing it. 🙂 🙂

As for my resistance training, I have finished 3 sessions now and am really, really starting to enjoy it again. For me it is always a uuugghhh! do I have to when it is time to get started but, once I do, and how great I feel after wards, it is SO worth it. I will need to use my blogger friends, the web, and my books to find the at home versions of some of the movements for the days that I can’t make it to the gym. For hubby it is easy to get there each day as he needs to go  through the city to get home and can stop at the gym on his way. For me, it requires a 40 min drive from our small town to the city, and then home again. Not always so fun or convenient! 😦

I am off now to check out some training plans for the 1/2 and to finish catching up on your blogs. And any more advice or tips for my training from you guys would be great. 🙂

Perfect 10 week 10 update.

March 12, 2010 7 comments

This morning I had another smoothie for breakfast. It was such an ugly purple, brown color that I just could not take a pic of it for you guys. LOL 🙂 Regardless of the color, it was delicious. Here is what I put in it:

2 cups spinach

1 cup frozen berries (blueberries, blackberries, and raspberries)

1 banana

1 scoop protein powder

2 tbsp of milled flax seed

1 cup of skim milk


Well, this was the last week of the Perfect 10 challenge put on by Steve over at Log my loss. I can’t believe how quickly the last 10 weeks have gone by.  It has been a great challenge to be a part of, helping to keep me motivated and thinking about how important my health is. Some of us in the challenge have had to face some extremely stressful, life altering events that have hopefully not derailed us too much from our goals and our health.

So here were my goals for ‘The Perfect 10′ challenge .

  1. Lose 8-10 lbs. (starting weight 156 lbs)current weight is 149.5 , a total loss  of 6.5 lbs. Not as much I was hoping for but, I know I was derailed for about 2 weeks because of my father death.
  2. run 5 kms or more at least 2 times per weekran one run of 6km’s and did 2 sessions on the elliptical of 5km each. I know the elliptical doesn’t count but, I haven’t been to the gym in a long time and I just love the elliptical. I had to take advantage of using it while I was getting the chance to hit the gym.
  3. finish 5 weeks of the Gateway to 8 k program. (the program is 10 weeks but, I know I will need to repeat some weeks so 5 weeks is sufficient and it will correspond with #2)did not finish this and actually have no interest in following the program right now. I have decided to add one mile each week to my runs to get to the miles needed for the 1/2 marathon in May. Before my dad passed, I was able to run the 8k on my own no problem and once or twice I ran 11km’s.
  4. get started on a weight training routine. I am thinking of starting again with NROLW.didn’t start NROLW  but, did start with resistance training again this week at the gym. Most of my weights will be done at home unless I go to meet hubby at the gym in the city. Very fun getting started again.

And now  for something you don’t know about me:

What I look like!

My daughter snapped a pic of me just after my workout and I had a mouth full of food! I was starved!

This is just as we were heading out to my dad memorial. I refused to let anyone where black as we needed to celebrate the life dad had, not mourn it. That turned out to be the right decision, everyone had fun with great stories of my dad and he had family and friends all together, just what he would have wanted.

Anyways, I am looking forward to reading up on how everyone did in the Perfect 10 challenge and seeing what kind of challenges my friends come up with next.

I need some advice for the 1/2  marathon training. I plan on adding 1 mile a week to my runs. Should that mile be for each of the 3 or 4 runs I do each week or, only add the 1 mile on the day I do my longer run?


March 11, 2010 6 comments

Well, my friend Carla, from My half dozen daily, has been having her green monster smoothies again for breakfast since the weather there has started to warm up. Seeing her lovely pics of her green monsters has influenced me to pull back out my blender and get back into the smoothies myself.

This is my smoothie this morning.

I think that this is the first time that my green monster has actually been green. Usually it is an ugly brown or purple because of the frozen berries I usually put in it. Today though, I skipped the berries and instead used these:

2 handfuls of spinach

a banana

a chopped apple

2 tbs of milled flax

1/3 cup of fat free, sugar free vanilla yogurt

1 cup of skim milk

It was delicious!! A little warmer than I like because I didn’t use ice and didn’t think to use a frozen banana. Delicious none the less. 🙂

I am having a much better day today dad wise. I still felt depressed after opening my eyes this morning and did not want to get up and start my day. But, once up, I felt much better. I think I am coming down with the nasty cold my youngest daughter had last week as I have a headache I can’t get rid of and feel crappy in my sinuses, plus extra tired. That is not good since I am supposed to be starting back to work next week. Ugghhh.

Funology post.

March 10, 2010 9 comments

One of my blogger friends over at My Half Dozen Daily, found this over at “Canadian Home“… and thought she’d play along! If you would like to play along, just copy and replace with your own answers. It is always fun to find out new things about your blogger friends.

Read on to learn more about me! 🙂


What is your salad dressing of choice?

Greek and Feta dressings! Love em!

What is your favorite sit-down restuarant?

The Keg. Can’t afford to go there much but, it’s still my favorite.

What is your favorite fast food restaurant?

Subway, if you call subway fast food. 🙂

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?

This may sound weird but, hummus. I swear I have an addiction to the chick peas! 🙂

What are your pizza toppings of choice?

Mushrooms, spinach, feta cheese, red peppers, black olives. Love the greek stuff!

How many televisions are in your house?

3. All gifts.

What color cell phone do you have?



Are you right-handed or left-handed?


Have you ever had anything removed from your body?

2 wisdom teeth. (and with Carla’s humor–3 kids. LOL)

What is the last heavy item you lifted?

This may sound morbid but, my dad’s ashes. It is quite surprising how heavy they can be.

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?

Not that I am aware of. But then again, I would be unconscious and not aware of it right?! 😉

Have you ever fainted?

See above.


If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?

Normally no but, with my recent loss, and the age of all the losses in my family, I would like to know at least what age, so I can live my life to the fullest.

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?

Hmm… I hate my name. I would love Jocelyn or Sydney. They are my favorite girl names. (named my daughter Jocelyn. And as a side note to Carla, her middle name is Miah. pronounced like Mya just spelled different.)

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?

None. Threw out all the old pairs when winter hit to start out with some fresh new ones.

Last person you talked to?

My youngest daughter.



Summer!! I’m all about sun & heat. Bring it on!!


I love Christmas with my family. :)

Day of the week?

Sunday. Usually calm and relaxing day. Sometimes we go swimming as a family. Love it!


July. Usually the best summer month and lots of garden veggies are ready to eat!


Green or brown.


Fruit smoothies and green monsters. Also coffee.


Don’t drink.


Missing someone?

My dad, my dad, my dad!!

What are you listening to?

28 days with Sandra Bullock is on the T.V right now.

What are you watching?

28 days on T.V and myself typing out this post. He, he. 🙂

Worrying about?

Getting groceries! Grocery shopping for some reason causes me to have panic attacks. I really hate it and I need to go tonight!

What’s the last movie you saw?

the Lovely Bones in the theatre. Wonderful movie.

Do you smile often?

Not so much right now.

If you could change your eye color what would it be?

I have brown eyes but have always wished for green!

What’s on your wish list for your birthday?

Not sure. It is in August so I have lots of time to think about it.

Can you do a chin-up?

Ha, ha, I wish!

Does the future make you more nervous or excited?

Nervous….. I have had some crappy stuff happen in the last year and a half.

Have you been in a car wreck?


Have you caused a car wreck?

Nope. Thank God!

Do you have an accent?

Depends on where you’re from. ;) LOL!! (stolen from Carla!)

Last time you cried?

this morning…. thinking about my dad.

Plans tonight?

Meeting hubby at the gym for a workout and them getting groceries. Have you seen the awesome new equipment that you can plug your ipod into to log your workouts? So cool and awesome!!

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?

No, I don’t. Some people have things going on that are much, much worse than my situation may be. There is a saying that…..’if everyone threw there problems into a big pile, you would quickly grab your own back!’

Name three things you bought yesterday?

Only two things….mac and cheese and a salad at work for lunch.

Have you met someone who changed your life?

I think that everyone you meet in your life changes your life in some way.

For the better or worse?


How did you bring in the New Year?

Cuddled in bed with hubby watching some movie or other.

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

Absolutely. I think most of us have things in our past we would change.

What songs do you sing in the shower?

right now my showers are my private crying times for my dad.

Have you held hands with someone today?

Not yet. Plan to hold hubby’s hand on the way to the car after our workout! 🙂

Who was the last person you took a picture of?

Probably my youngest daughter Jocelyn. She loves having her pic taken.

Are most of the friends in your life new or old?


Do you like pulpy orange juice?

yuck… I don’t like any juices!

Last time you ate peanut butter and jelly?

I don’t like jelly but, I had a peanut butter sandwich on Monday for a pre-workout eat.

What were you doing at 12 a.m. last night?


What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?

My dad.

So here is some of me in a nut shell. I hope you had fun reading my answers and I hope that some of you will play along too. I know a lot of my answers revolve around my dad but, his death is a MAJOR part of my life mentally and emotionally right now.

Categories: random stuff

Tough time.

March 10, 2010 6 comments

Today is a tough day for me. Ever since waking up. Most mornings for me, when I wake up, feel doomy and gloomy and depressing. I know it is because I have just lost my father but, it is still an awful feeling, one that makes me not want to get up to start the day. A day filled with dealings regarding my dad. I hate it. It is not fair. That he is gone so soon and that I have to go through this. My sister, who lives in another province, is coming here at the end of the month to help to clean out dad’s house. I am not ready! I don’t want to clean out his house, donate his things, make it real that he is gone. But, my sister is a single mom living on a part time job and can’t just come here, on a whim, whenever I am personally ready to let my dad go.  And we still need to spread his ashes, which I need my sister there for. And I still have my mom’s ashes from a year ago that we need to deal with. Is that going to be weird? To spread dad and mom’s ashes on the same day? For sure it will be. But, we don’t know when my sister will be able to get back here. It will be a very hard, emotional time.


On another note, I went to work yesterday for the first time in three weeks. It was nice to see my friends again and talk about dad with them.

The funny thing was that yesterday, everyone noticed my weight loss. I have been losing weight for the past year and a half, almost two years, and yesterday was the first time anyone noticed. My close friends of course have noticed because I would start wearing different sized uniforms and clothes. But yesterday, I had 3 coworkers from different departments stop me in the halls and ask me how much weight I had lost and how I did it. Clean eating and taking up running! I had a lot of comments about how great I am looking. That made me feel really good about the work I have been doing and my success. It helps to keep me motivated and want to continue on this journey to good health I am on. I have joined the Daily Mile site to track my workouts and keep up with my fellow journeyers. You can checkout my daily mile page by clicking on the Daily Mile logo on the right.

Tonight I am going to meet my hubby at the gym after he gets off work and we are going to do our second session of resistance training together. Most of the time my workout with weights will be a home workout but, whenever I can, I will meet up with hubby and work out with him. It is great to see him making healthy choices on his own and doing something about his health.

How about you? Has it taken a while for people to notice your weight loss? Or do they notice right away? Do you hit the gym with your significant other?