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He’s at the house…

My dad. Is still at his house. Why I don’t know. Does he not realize he has passed away? After all, it was extremely sudden. Is he not yet ready to move on as he really didn’t get a chance to live out his life? I just don’t know.

I had to go back to his home on monday, 4 hours away, to try to get his mail transfered to my home and to pick up his ashes from the funeral home. My two oldest kids came with me and we of course needed to stay a night at dad’s. I was sick to my stomach with this thought. When my mom passed, (her and dad being divorced for 30 years and she lived alone in the same house) the house FELT lonely and abandoned, uncomfortable. Dad got the house when she passed so he moved in very shortly after mom’s passing. He needed to do a lot of work to fix the house up and he did a fantastic job. He wanted to make it nice again and comfortable so that we would go down to visit him lots since he now had the room for his grand kids. So I was afraid to go and stay there with that lonely, abandoned, my dad is gone feeling.

But, I can’t explain it. I felt absolutely at peace there and it felt as if we were visiting dad and just waiting for him to get home from work. The house still FEELS lived in. It actually feels safer there than when I grew up in that house.

The night after dad passed, my sister slept in his bed. She said she almost called for me because, she had seen a figure start to head into the room, then pause, back out, head in again, pause, them back out and leave. My daughter experienced that on Monday when laying on the living room couch to sleep there for the night. That was a trait of my dad’s. He had way to much respect for someones privacy to enter the room, including the living room if someone was sleeping on the couch. He would go out for a walk or sit in the kitchen until we were up so that he could go into those rooms. And this trip I slept in his bed and, though I didn’t see a figure, I felt as if I was being watched over. And I felt safe. When it was time to go, I felt sad and depressed about leaving just like any other time we had visited with dad and it was time for him to go or us to go.

So both my sister, daughter and I believe and feel that dad is still there at his home. And I really hope that for whatever reason he is still at his home, he will be able to move on.

Any thoughts on the matter?


On another note, this is what I bought myself to help to get me out of my slump:

I workout with it for 3 days before going to my dad’s since my treadmill is still packed away for the painting of the house. The painting is held off for reasons I am sure you understand.

My favorite exercise is the step aerobics. After 3 days of this, my calves were so stiff and sore regardless of stretching that I had trouble walking. I must have been quit the site trying to get around to deal with my dad’s stuff. I absolutely love this workout game though and can’t wait to get started with it again today since my calves are feeling better. It has now been a full month since I have had a run so I am hoping the weather gets as nice today as they say it should so that I can get out for a run. I need to get working on it because I am thinking of running a half marathon in Penticton, B.C with my sister-in-law in May. Maybe it will be nice enough to drive my new Harley there?? 🙂

Any advice and tips on training for the half marathon?

  1. March 3, 2010 at 11:20 am

    It sounds like you are in a good place right now. Maybe your dad was hanging out just long enough to make sure you got to that place. 🙂

  2. March 3, 2010 at 5:12 pm

    After my mom died, I was out & a lady I was standing next to asked me if I knew someone by the name of Rachel.. it was my mom’s name & this was just 2 weeks after she passed away…

    HUGS to you!

  3. March 4, 2010 at 12:39 pm

    Wow, this post gave me chills.
    Sending more hugs your way. I hope as each day passes that you are filled with peace knowing your dad is ‘home’. 🙂

  4. March 4, 2010 at 12:48 pm

    (((Karyn))) I’m going to email you hun!

    Love that game!! Totally rocks! The Step game is the *BEST*!! lol! I love it!

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